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Remembering Paul Pena

Lawrence and Paul Pena at Clarion, 2000

Every time I drive around the Upper Haight I think of Paul Pena, who passed away on October 1, 2005.  Paul was not only a dear friend, but an inspiring blues musician/Tuvan-styled throat singer and the main character of the Oscar nominated documentary, Genghis Blues.

When Paul was very ill, a team of friends came together to help take care of him.  One day I took Paul out for a drive.  He wanted to smell the sea.  We drove to the Great Highway and parked on the headland.  I rolled down the window for him to lean his head out.  “I love you, Clara.”  Paul said.  “And Lawrence is the son I never had.”

Paul was the teacher who inspired my son Lawrence to take up music again.  He had indeed a hand in raising Lawrence by showing him a glimpse of the music world.  I spoke to Paul often then, and one time in particular, frustrated and sad about Lawrence.  He listened patiently and said in his calm voice, “Lawrence is a special child and special child needs special care.”  I broke down and cried.  Paul, being blind, saw with clarity the need of the misunderstood child and reminded me my role as a mother.

Whenever I think of Paul he seems immediately present.  His deep voice and wisdom stay with me even though his body is gone.  A few months ago they showed Genghis Blues at the Roxy’s again.  Paul, alive, singing, having adventures, loving, despairing, being human.  I love you, Paul.

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